Well, I am now 4 days post-op and SO glad that the surgery is behind me! I am of course moving slowly, still under the influence of pain medication, and very tired. The pain medication works but makes me somewhat nauseated as well, so am taking a bit of Phenergan here and there to combat that, and it makes me sleepy. Hence, I’ve yet to make an entry here about the whole hospital experience, and decided, get cracking Sal Gal! Before it’s all just a big blur! So let me begin by saying…
THANK YOU CHERYL!
Cheryl’s presence with me prior to and at the hospital supported me in a way that gave me the courage to proceed and the space to verbalize my fears, my anxiety, and even my anger at this whole situation. Her sincere empathy, willingness to listen, and calm, peaceful energy gave me the courage to get to the hospital in the first place, and then home again 🙂 And she allowed me and even encouraged me to share with her my wishes regarding potential bad outcomes, just in case. DNR status, etc. etc. And once it was discussed, I could forget about it, what a relief! Hard discussions to have but necessary. And then she made phone calls to my family and a few friends after surgery, letting them know I was okay. I am forever grateful. She is very special, and I am humbled and inspired by her wisdom, understanding, and love. Cheryl, my Anam-Cara, my soul friend ❤
Also, I want to thank my dear family and friends for your prayers and overwhelming support ❤ It was very comforting knowing that so many folks cared and were rooting for me! I have been humbled. Finding myself in this position has been hard, I’m not used to being on the receiving end. It has been a roller coaster of emotions and I have taken a few things personally and made assumptions where I should not have. I sincerely apologize. Please forgive me.
So, “Peace Health at Riverbend”…With a name like that, I told Cheryl we could pretend we were going not to a hospital, but to a spa! And I was getting the full works! Such a beautiful campus. Here are a few photos of that experience, starting with my pre-op nurses, Carol and Carol 🙂 The one on the left wishes her name was spelled Carol E…that made me laugh 🙂 And as I have my own sister Carol, I felt comforted right away!
I had a wonderful anesthesiologist, too, and I remember asking him “Have you ALWAYS been this nice?” So I felt I was in good hands, and then Dr. Yang came in and I got to ask her some last minute questions and Cheryl got to meet her, too. Then it was off to LaLa land….
But when I woke up, arghh, pain, and nausea, and lots of noise in the recovery room, and I just wanted to get out of there and the nurse wouldn’t tell me if I had had lymph node dissection or not, which was my biggest concern. I was in recovery a long time, and it’s a bit of a blur, but finally made it to my room and was reunited with Cheryl ❤ And of course my first question, “Did the Dr. do LND?” to which Cheryl told me yes, as I guess I had a tumor in the uterus that was penetrating about a third into the uterine wall. Drag, bummer, not what I wanted to hear, but at least I know.
So then, finally turned the corner that night about 2 or 3 am, under the care of my nurse Donn and his nursing assistant, Rob. Here I am walking in the hall with Donn, and I’m pointing at my IV pump, as it says 125, and I was joking with him asking if that’s what I weighed now after surgery! HaHa. Actually, I gained 4 pounds from all the fluid they gave me. How messed up is that? They take organs OUT and you GAIN weight? That’s just wrong!
But they were awesome, a great team, and I was so happy to finally be on top of the pain and nausea that I couldn’t sleep after that! I did doze a bit, but was so excited and couldn’t wait to get home. And when I was discharged around noontime I think, Cheryl and I went to the coffee shop, got a latte, and sat visiting in the lobby for a bit before she went and got the van. Home again, home again, jiggedy jig! Here’s Cheryl and I in the lobby just before leaving 🙂
So hopefully, further pathology will come back clean. I have to wait for those results until next Friday, a week from today. So it’s going to be a long week. I have 5 lap incisions and they are sore and bruised but no open incision, hurray! So I can still wear a bikini one of these days if I ever choose to haha. I feel better in many ways already, no more bleeding, and my irritated bladder seems much happier now too, and so I am relieved to have this behind me, now I am focusing on recovering and taking it easy. And today I finally pooped! Which believe me folks, is a big deal after not doing so for 5 days, since the big purge the day before surgery. I haven’t eaten a lot but was starting to feel increasingly bloated, so what a relief! I am on the mend, and it’s a good place to be! I feel blessed. Thank you again, EVERYONE, for your support, love and prayers!